One of life’s most isolating experiences is, in my belief, beginning to develop strong, intense feelings for someone while they are stuck at the starting line of their feelings for you. I feel as though, the moment you let your guard down to let another soul in, you automatically instill a trust in that person. To have that trust shattered whether it be by your own hand or the intentions of another leaves a lasting scar on your ability to let someone else in.

There’s a choice to be made: you can close yourself off, creating a wall so high between you and anyone else that you never experience any momentary happiness due to another soul merging with your own or you can live open, knowing what you’re worth, what is good for you and what it is that you deserve.

The discontent and apprehensiveness hangs in the air, the cigarette smoke’s unfriendly twin. It soaks into my skin, and is taken in. I suffer at the hands of myself, I suffer alone. I am alone but strong.

I lay there, soaked in discontent, plagued by thoughts of doing more - being more. I lusted after a life of eternal excitement; no lows, only soaring highs. Until now, I didn’t fully understand. It’s the want to make your life better, to make your life more, that separates you.

I often create a reality out of my fantasy mind. I think that it’s both my strongpoint and my downfall. I don’t think I live in the real world. I live my version of what I want my reality to be. I think that the moment I stopped viewing the world through the fantasy, that’s when I’ll know I’m insane.

I’m well aware that I go too much too quick. My emotions are so full that there’s no time for any kind of midpoint. If I like you, I like you alot. There’s no two ways about it. I won’t be forced to apologize for it either. If passion is my biggest crime then I feel as though I’m living a colourful life.

I love the idea that I have this forum to put my thoughts out into the world. It’s a comforting thought to know that I can share my hopes, my dreams, my art and my being with people all around the world, thus, connecting us on our paths. I take comfort in you. I hope you can take comfort in me.

I really feel for people who put all of their effort being in a relationship or finding someone to be in a relationship with. I feel as though, if you need that validation from someone to survive, you’re lacking something within yourself. There’s so much emphasis placed on finding “the one” and jumping from relationship to relationship that people never really look at the driving forces behind what makes us relate to others the way we do.

I know for myself, I’d rather spend years finding out who I am and meeting lots of special people along the way, than wallow in my own need for validation, whining and moaning about how I can’t get someone to love me.

I believe in making your life what you want it to be. Risk the hurt, risk the awkwardness, risk failure to succeed. No amount of let downs are final, you only need one yes to begin a journey to where you want to be. Always come from a place of yes.

I believe that it takes a huge amount of courage to stand for what you know to be true. My aim is to always be as authentic as posible and to know what it is that I’m willing to stand for. Take charge through knowing yourself. Courage is an admirable feat and always live as an example.

Sometimes opportunities really do fall out of the sky, catch them and run with them. Even if it wasn’t what you thought you’d be doing, take it, learn from it. All experience is valid and will make sense to you in the end. Anything, that knowledge can be taken from and experience can be gained from, has the power to change your life.

There’s really no point in comparing the severity of our problems because we all have our crosses to bear and they all weigh differently upon us but take a moment to look around and realize how lucky you are right now. You have a future, you have life, you have time…don’t waste any of it on negativity.

Sometimes, things happen so fast that you’re completely unaware of them. You become so used to the loneliness, the lack of feeling that your actual feelings lay hidden, buried beneath all of your efforts to push it all away, to feel nothing. It takes alot to finally admit to yourself, most times in the darkest of places, that you can feel something - whether it be for someone, or about yourself.

Don’t let your inner thoughts trick you into believing you’re not good enough for anyone, reject the thought and masque it with self love. For, even if it is a lie, it has the power to become truth.

Believe in yourself. Allow yourself to be delusional in believing that everything will work out because I believe that’s the only way anything’s going to happen. Trust yourself enough to feel like you know what you’re doing. Love yourself better than anyone else could and live knowing who you are. Live unbroken.

I’m in no way offended when people question my sexuality or call me “gay” because I don’t see anything wrong with homosexuality or being open, sexually. It doesn’t offend me when people tell me I dress like a girl because I think women are powerful, strong creatures and I don’t see anything wrong with being compared to them.

Think logically and use that as your defence for people’s usual bullshit.